I.Feel.Dead.

with school work,

with classmates,

with teachers,

with band,

with 'lectures',

with life.

Unpredictable and out of control.

But for the sake of.

i shall hold it in and move on.

-I think i would like to give up my position as a class chairman.

-I don't know my maths and I'm troubled.

-I really really where I'm sitting in class.

-My life is so busy I can't even blink an eye.

-I'm not ready for badminton tournament.

-I want BIG FUN IN THE SUN music score.

I need a new reed for god's sake,

my current one is chipped but there's no more 3 1/2 V brand reed.

It's so unfair,

our section is one of the most hardworking section (okay i mean me kaiying and xinyi) but we are the ones who get the most lectures.

and we were damn demoralized yesterday i think we thought of not playing for limelight for a second or two.

I think today's sectionals practically drove me crazy,

that I started to imitate singers and their songs and sang unglamly in JP.

And I think people stared at us(me?) and I didn't even care.

What the hell.

Then here comes along this Sec 1 girl who is so damn old and she's currently now the talk between people.
PRAYYYYY that she's not in band,

who'd want her for a junior?

Today xinyi huiling yamchyi huangqing and i spent around 30min walking around deciding what to eat for lunch.

SUPER BRAVO.

I'm trying to save up money I've wasted during the holiday as much as I can.

I saved more than half my allowance for the past two weeks and I'm so proud of myself.

And I want to try playing the other songs for Limelight.

I don't think I can't play at least a few bars for the other songs.

It's kinda pathetic to fake through all the other songs.

Countdown.

Limelight in 9 days.

badminton tournament in. OMD. 5 days.
OKAY IM SO DEAD FOR BADMINTON.

I'm so going to reproach myself if I ever screw up.

Which I believe mostly I will.

Life goes on.

NEXT MONTH WILL BE BETTER.