Deathly Hallows

HIHIHI....
this post is dreadful....

20th NOV , THURSDAY
PSLE results.
a.t.r.o.c.i.u.s--
kay whatever,it goes like that:
chihon and tina gate-crashed into my house.we waited at 859 block.mq,tina and i went to school together.the principal talked for a while only.heard char's mum say that got one other school,the principal talked until 1+.they probably talk about the school's percentage of passes,distinctions,etc...but our school,didnt.WHAT,TOO LOUSY ALREADY RIGHT,IF SAY OUT WILL EMBARRASS PPS RIGHT!ask PPS go die lah,gave us lousy education then dont dare to let us see the percentages.!I HATE PPS!!!UGHHHH,haix...but got use meh.if can,i use bomb to bomb the school. -.-"Well done,"said mrs vijay.for one second i thought i trusted her words.then the moment i held up what she passed me,i realised i was STUPID to.i dragged my feet towards tina.squated down,looked at my aggregate score,and started crying suddenly.i mean its like,i cant control lah,i expected higher score.i couldnt control my emotions.my tears just fought their way out of my eyes.for once,i thought people seeing me cry,doesnt really matter anymore.the fact was hat i couldnt get into my dream school ANYMORE-my hopes are DASHED.before i knew it,mq was already crying.then char,evelyn,jieling.it was disappointment.replace it with no other words.there were people who tried to console us,calm us,coax us,but it just made me cry even more.especially when one said this line:"not bad already.what done is done,now you have to choose your new school."my tears just burst out....took control of me.this line reminds me of how low my aggregate score is,how many schools i cant get into(actually,its 20,according to the book.although not accurate.still,around there.)and that i CANT get intomy dream school.i really didnt feel like talking.i felt useless.felt stupid.i was dreading each moment.all i could think was that i have no future.we were starting to leave.by then,i was feeling a little better.at least,there is one school i can get in for sure.they wanted to go JP,but i didnt feel like going.i headed home.when i reached home,i couldnt take it any longer,so i let go.started to cry even harder.until i couldnt cry.i wanted consolation-quantum of solcae.from just SOMEONE.but then i realised i DONT deserve it,since i scored so badly.then mum came home,and asked for my aggregate score.she sat beside me after i told her,then i cried out again.i know she must be feeling very disppointed inside although she didnt let it show.and even despite dad's encouragement,i didnt feel A BIT better.i just thought i was hopeless-beyond hopeless.then i hear mum talking on the phone.and i heard that both y cousins scored higher than me.and i was like "open window,jump down".but of course i couldnt bear to do so.i asked myself,why did i score so badly?why did i let myself,and my parents down?how could i?and how do i face the others in future?can hanging your head low(real low) help?if it does,i will do it.but for now,my heart still aches.i know things will never be the same anymore.maybe i just need a little more time.....

anyway,saw the newspapers,
foo ming wei's name appeared.
275,congrats.
envious man.
haix,if last year march when west grove called to ask if i wanted to go west grove and i said YES,
i would have scored higher....
MAYBE.60% possibility yeah?
i mean,just look at mingwei for example....
highest in singapore is 287-nanyang girls.
and saw that this year is the worst year among last 5 years.
97.5% to 97.4% to 97.7% to 97.7% to 97.1%...

21th NOV , FRIDAY
IDK?
everything is blurred since i am still prying about 20th nov.
haix,still cant believe my aggregate score is __.
and the day before i pinched myself just to make sure that that day was really that day i got my PSLE result and everything dreadful happened....
and the print appeared,
but just a little.haha.

22th NOV , SATURDAY
IDK?
oh yeah,
went to commonwealth open house from 8.20-10.40.
the school's kind of a little old...
and you have to tuck in your uniform...
and BUT if you look out from some windows you see a really nice reservoir-the reason why they decided to stay there is to take care of it.
we were at the auditorium getting ready to hear the talk,
when suddenly the principal came to us and shook our hands and asked us questions which we didnt answer.haha.
speechless,yeah?
but pissed off.YEAH.
went to school tour.
i remember the media part,
which was REALLY REALLY COOL!
then the 3 dance groups' performance.
before we walk in,
we saw alfred and hector.lol.
when they were dancing,can feel the ~vibe~ from the ground to your feet to your whole body.lol.
then i saw PRISCILLA!!!
ex-gym member and of course,
that makes her ex-pioneerion.
went down to art gallery where it is DIRECTLY below the dance studio(?)
and can REALLY feel the 'bmp,bmp,bmp' from the dance studio.
then to the hall to see the netball and badminton.
then char,her sis and mum left.
i wanna go see the choir sing de,
but our 'tour-guide' never bring us there. -.-
so we went home too haha.
actually is went to cousin's house.
he's currently in jurong.

23th NOV , SUNDAY
was feeling sick in the morning.
then went to consult doctor. -.-
sneezed,coughed,and i've got fever-38.5 degree.yay?
plus a little bit sore throat.
and felt giddy all the way until...
i had my medicine and 5 pills,
and went to sleep in car all the way to VIVO.
well,i insisted on going even though i was suppose to rest.
cause i trust my body to get well...
and hey,who knows..
after i got out of the car,
i didnt felt giddy anymore.
and of course drank lots of water.
and at night was feeling SO MUCH BETTER.
even though still have to stuff those coloured small and big pills with words(and even stars!) carved on it into my mouth. -.-
my fever was obviously gone and i wasnt sneezing anymore.
plus,my throat wasnt sore anymore.
fast recovery,eh?
bought one luggage($93).
lots of $$ flown away.

haix,still in a dilemma about school choices.
but currently is like that:
1st-commonwealth
2nd-jurong
3rd-fairfield methodist
4th-swiss cottage
5th-fuhua
6th-clementi town
the dilemma is that im not sure if i want fairfield methodist or jurong as 2nd choice.
of course,if i know which school has better education,
i will go that school.
soo.....lets see..

fairfield methodist:
band 4
possible CCA to join:drama(english),dance(international),volleyball.

jurong:
band 9!
possible CCA to join:modern dance and volleyball.

i think fairfield methodist is better.
so change!settled.
the thing is,
i filled in the S1 option form which 2nd choice is jurong already.
could i possibly cancel it and change?
via internet,my mum say will be complicated.
those blocks and all,blablablah.

anyway,really really hope can get into commonwealth.
i'll join netball,dance,or media club,or drama.
though spending 4 years at the a-little-dull school,
or maybe not.
cause i told my parents i really wanted to go to RV,
then they say if i work hard during sec 1 and 2,
i would achieve good results and transfer to RV.
but who knows...
i might not make it,
or be able to part with my new friends.
whatever,im travelling to far to the future?
cause,maybe i'll die tmr.lol.
they say one part of china-the sky has the same 'symptom' as in sichuan before the earthquake.
so,if its guilin or vietnam,
say byebye.
hope god wont end my life.
i still have a LOOOOONG way to go.
whatever,i'll be gone TMR!!!
25th NOV - 3rd DEC!!
i know you guys gonna miss me loads,WAHAHA.
and to jieling who requested for souvenirs,
see first huh,....
this time going for 9 days,SHIOOK!
mq is going to japan for 7 days-26th NOV - 2nd DEC.WAHAHA.

went to the briefing.
and loads and loads to remember..
didnt really bother to,haha.
they say what there will be one ride which takes 5h!
and 5h back!again!
10h on bus!OMDDDDD!
and the maximum speed of the car=55km/h!
and must be careful with handbag,
cause there are people who will try to steal things and you wont notice.
better to put your bag in front of you.lol.
and have to be aware of bishops(?)
they may sell expired products!
so inconvenient seh this trip.
but still looking forward to...
TMR!!!
9days!
but still,i'll be missing:
stalford farewell party,VBS,youth camp!
hope the miss is worth it.
crossing my fingers.

XOXO,
[xiuqi]